Ma chère Maman,
First of all let me start by saying that I love you. I love you with all my heart.
You cannot imagine all the positive things you brought into my life…. Ambition, courage, tenacity, dynamism, but most importantly: Faith and love of others.
Even though you have your own principles, I am amazed at the capacity you have to evolve and listen to your daughters’ feedbacks to become a “cool Mom”. You have accepted our boyfriends and make them feel very welcome each time we visit you. You also take the time to go shopping with us sometimes now!
What touched me the most is how much you’ve improved your message recording skills… It basically went from “Hi Claire, it’s your Mom. It looks like I’m disturbing you. So, when you have time, call me back”… to “Hey Darling, it’s mummy. I just wanted to have some news. I love you”!!
…And it feels very good! To know that we can count on you. That no matter what happens; you’ll be there for us.
It wasn’t always easy. I remember when I grew up, I felt like there was this huge wall between us: you were the Adult, and we were the Children.
You wouldn’t share your emotions very easily, and I was suffering about it. I wanted to know everything about you: where you grew up, how you felt at school, who were your friends, when was your first kiss, why you chose to marry Dad and not one of the two guys who proposed to you beforehand? (and who they were, by the way…)
I felt like you wanted to forget about your life before us, because you were not happy, or you did not feel confident?
I do know that deep inside, you are quite fragile, and very sensitive. You want to feel loved.
But why do you have this façade of a rock, so secret, discreet and impenetrable…? Why are you so hyperactive all the time? What do you want to hide?
Mom, let me tell you something: you are an amazing person. You run half marathons, you even did the Tough Mudder, you climbed the Mont Blanc, you’ve been working for 7 years as a volunteer. You’re smart, you’re funny and you look gorgeous. So don’t be so humble all the time! Allow yourself to be a bit under the spotlight sometimes!
All I want is for you to be happy. You’ve given us so much already. I remember when I was telling you “How can you be fulfilled in your life without having a job? Why are you always nagging me?”. But now it all makes sense. We were your top priority. And you wanted is for us to have the best education possible, and to feel loved.
But now it’s your turn Mom! Go and explore the World! We’ll be fine. We’ll look after each other. And if we miss you too much, we will look at the moon, and know that you’ll be watching it too.